Please bring me comfort.

The yummy goodness that brownies are have recently brought me comfort. After buying a new silicone 1x1 pan, I finally begin to try it out.

Waiting in anticipation, I realize I begin this type of "brownie-jig."  These brownies, nothing super special, just from the box.  No special additives (wink) in this one....

After cooling, I dumped them out.   Oh man...yummy goodness!  Ok, so I actually ate all 24 pieces in a matter of 36 hours.  Yikes!  But wait a minute, they are tiny.  This equates to maybe a few adult-size pieces.

Attempting to justify my bad eating indulgence is simple ridiculous, but oh well,  I felt happy. 

I.....WANT........COOKIE!

I've been such the Cookie Monster these past few days! Cookie-Brownie combo..my new discover. I've been thinking about making cookies for the past weeks but just was not compelled to really do it. My cousin made such a large batch and was trying to them out of her house.

If I took them, I knew I would eat them. My attempts to off-load them did not work! I ate...I ate...I ate. Chewy goodness! Mmmmmmmm Mmm!

I just could not resist them. My consequence was massive sugar overload and major bloating feelings. What was I thinking?

So good and yet so dangerous!

I know how bad this obssession is, but I now am left to try and tweak the recipe and add it to my collection....my thoughts return to one of my many dreams:

To own a cookie shop. Make some amazing cookies. Fatty ones too.

If I reduce the carbs, does it really get any better?

I wonder if I need to add cookie baker to my list of job experiences? I must continue this pursuit...

I must start my cleanse!!!!

Ritual #1 (or Obsession #1)

I really need to have a morning coffee! Either at home or from the very first "good quality" coffee shop out in town. Of course, my coffee is the better of the two. I make it my way and I like it strong. But I am also the type of coffee drinker who likes a strong coffee with cream and sugar (I even need to for my espresso). Even more particular, raw sugar and carnation evaporated milk.




Sure, I like MY way, but if I can't have it MY way, other ways are fine; the bottom line is still, I need my morning coffee. Without it, I get very sleepy by 3pm; and this is a proven fact.


Of the many possibilities of making my morning brew, my absolute preference is a french press. I used to do the drip thing, but found that I prefer it this way. But I was never this particular either. I got hooked about 10 years ago, while working downtown and encountered the infamous coffee cart. Ok, I stopped primarily due to the cute man working the machine! So, he got me started with a latte...then a vanilla latte. As the year progressed, I couldn't handle the milk (and I just don't like soy), so I changed to an americano. Eventually, the americano was weak and I needed something stronger.

I did the drip for a while due to convenience sake...but now, I love my french press. I continue to encourage coffee drinkers to have their coffee this way too. It's a bit like a religion...and my attempts to try and convert folks to drink it my way.

The other dynamic involved with my morning ritual is the type of coffee. I once loved my 100% Kona coffee. As pricey as it is, averaging $20 for 1 pound, I could no longer afford it...and the bean was not strong enough for me. Same as the Kaua`i Peaberry or the Kona Peaberry; not strong enough. What I like is a strong Italian roast and I can also settle for an Espresso roast.

It may appear that I may be called a "coffee snob" and ok, I do have my particular desires, but why not? I can! You will never catch me drinking coffee from McDonald's, I call that battery acid. 7-11's actually sell Lion's coffee and that I'll drink if I really have to. And yes, I'll have a cup out in a restaurant. But even after all this, I still need to drink it with cream and sugar.

This love for my coffee, some can call this an addiction. I guess it is, I really do need the caffeine...the caffeine is my drug of choice. But I like to call this my ritual....