Ritual #1 - redux (I believe my problem is the sugar!)

I am aware...completely aware of my sugar addiction. Call me ignorant if you like, but I really love what the sugar does to my morning ritual. My need, desire, urge to get some caffeine into my system can be a bit neurotic. Please, don't start envisioning me like the crack-head druggie with the dirty hands and the constant shakes.

Isn't the raw sugar ok? (LOL)

I no longer do the white stuff; and only when I run out, do I use the brown stuff. I've tried Stevia...my coffee tastes different and I DON'T LIKE IT!

I don't want to attempt to put any of that other 'fake' stuff in either (the blue or pink packets). But when I think about it, these alternative sugars is doing the 'same' thing as ALL sugar does. It reeks havoc on our bodies.

As I try and justify my angst over my sugar problem, which is really the best? I somehow seek relief in my use of Raw Sugar. Honey....well, I DON'T LIKE IT in my coffee either! Do I keep trying to find something different or give it all up?

I hate trying something new in my cup to only find that I hate the taste. Why did I do this? I just wasted a cup of coffee! My further angst is because I really like to do it just once in the day. Making my morning coffee is not a simple process:

1) Dump out the water from yesterday and boil another batch of water.
2) Dump out the grains from yesterday and wash out my press for today.
3) Get the grinder and grind up a fresh batch of beans, place it in my press.
4) Wait...Wait...Wait...Wait...Wait!
5) I wonder how much longer until the water finishes to boil?
6) I may preoccupy myself with making the bed or cleaning up a bit.
7) The water is done...I let is sit for a bit...I pour.
8) I wait again, for the magic to happen!
9) Minutes later, I finally pour my cup of coffee.
10) Get the cream and sugar...do the scientific mixing.
11) *ouch* it's too hot to drink right away...so I let it cool down some.
12) What seems like a long time later (maybe 15-30 minutes later), I can finally enjoy my cup of coffee.

WTF? Did I just finally decipher the length of time it takes for this morning ritual? I don't care! I still love it! I still feel like I need it! I want it!

I accept my problem...I'm addicted to this. I think I have a substance dependecy issue! Oh well, ces't la vie!